Thursday, February 19, 2009
Arunachala Nannagaru (Part 3)
I met the great man in his chambers that evening after returning from pradakshina (by car).
I was introduced to him by a common friend and the saint smiled and asked me to come in.
He asked me to sit beside him and enquired about my well being and my profession. Knowing that I was a practising joint replacement surgeon at a young age he expressed surprise and joy.
"Are you happy then with your life?" he asked
I did not know what to say but blurted out a 'yes'. His question was more of a prod for me to introspect rather than a question searching for superficial confirmation.
He looked at me.
His eyes were reputed to be piercing, purifying.
But as I gazed into his eyes I felt a different emotion. I could see a little surprise, a little enquiry and a little mirth in them. I could also see changes in them due to old age.
What was he seeing in me? Was he seeing in me all the sins I had ever commited? All the people I have cheated? All the people I have lied to?
What was he seeing in me?
The very thought was scary.
Finally the saint smiled at me.
And in that moment I knew that, despite my sins, my shortomings, I had been accepted.
"Manasa Bhajore guru charanam, dusthare bavasaagara taranam.
Guru Maharaj, Guru Jai Jai. Sri Sadhguru Nannagaru Jai Jai."
( O mind chant the glories of the Guru's feet, they take you across the ocean of phenomenal existence, the Guru is Emperor, Victory to the guru, victory to Sri Nannagaru."